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Wednesday, May 10th, 2006
12:05 am
so, after many months on accidental hyadis (?), i've decided for the summer i need to come back to the livejournal. actually i just missed my lemon heads lol :) although i still have the problem of not having any-fucking-thing to write about, my life is so pointless. finals suck, and i'm working at a day care this summer. whoo - hoo. it does feel nice to type freely again, or maybe i've just had too much vodka. yea!

current mood: drunk

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Tuesday, February 28th, 2006
11:01 pm
i wish someone would write a prophesy about me. one that doesn't involve gay men. or maybe just to invole some straight men? i'm not sure. i still love you though. and as for that bitchy girl in my hall, yeah, fuck you. in your face. twice. i was drunk the other night and the only thing i could think about was that i might actually be wasting the best years of my life. and that i'm totally in love with older men. MUCH older men... took a test today that i aced, and another that i failed. guess that just it, huh. time for AbFab.

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Wednesday, February 15th, 2006
3:43 pm
so for valentine's day, i took a nap and ate fudge with an equally single gay man, and recapped how we're going to have a baby. his name will be broderick jones, and we will call him brodey.

i think my life has officially ended

current mood: bored

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Sunday, January 29th, 2006
3:20 pm
"remember when we belted out Mariah driving to GADs at 4 in the morning? Corn has a great voice."
"and that party when ____ was huffing (you know!) and i fell over into that broom closet! classic shit"
"and then margarita night at mary's and michael taking poro pics in the rain! it's the wallpaper on my phone."
"and don't forget falling asleep to fucking roseanne every night! hells yeah"
"were you just kissing michael? yeah, it's cool, he's totally gay."

-someone shit on the coats! someone has shit on or around the vicinity of the coats!-
-that is the gayest thing i have ever heard- and -let's discuss colon hydro-therapy-

god i am so glad to be back among humanity.

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Thursday, January 19th, 2006
3:03 pm - Emma
i have to say, i think you have surprised me more than most. you were quite possibly the most convincive i've had yet, but you really can lie cheat and steal with the best thieves i've known.

glad to be leaving this town again after a reunion that's left me even more tired than when i arrived. it managed to whip my ass all over again, 4 years worth in 9 months, and now i just want to be left alone

i cried last night, and you didn't call. i'm not sure, maybe you forgot, or were trashed, or just didn't care, because now your life is right and complete and i'm beginning to realize i made a mistake ever telling you i was in love.

my dramatic friends, i hate you and love you more than you will ever know, usually all at the same time, confusing my heavy heart and head, forcing me to sleep much more than necessary.

and as for you, the beast of my dreams and the stake through my heart (i'm trying lauren, really) i'm starting to forgive, mostly because i'm starting to forget, but also because iv'e realized that what i remember from you is causing all other intimate pain in my life. you were the poison that caused this sickness i've been in for 3 years. and i don't care anymore.

today has been beautiful. sunny, windy, high 60's, and i found myself at the place where industry meets the waves. there was this seagull that kept diving at nothing, so it looked, but i was laughing at him, and i felt a sense of completion that i've never felt before.

'be present' and this year will be great. i think i've finally found a goal i can happily work towards.

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Wednesday, December 28th, 2005
3:29 am
i think i finally feel alive again

current mood: complacent

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Sunday, December 25th, 2005
1:40 am - happy christmas
remember when christmas was exciting? now im' jsut tired

current mood: sleepy

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Thursday, December 8th, 2005
12:27 am
so i had another one of thoes spaz days where i just started cleaning everything (and baking, but that's a different story) but i broke open the drawer that's still packed with old notes from forever and 10 days ago. i swear to god meg, there are notes that you gave me from like, 6th grade. and i watched mean girls this morning and realized how much our notebook was like the burn book, we just weren't cool enough to cause an uproar of the entire school. have we alwasy been this badass? i think so
oh, and i think i'm developing carpal tunnel, i am typing so fucking slow. not even i could dare to assume that pain like this in my wrist could ever be anything but a very bad thing.

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Thursday, December 1st, 2005
10:23 pm
happy birthday hooker, you know i love you :) congrats on officially being old. i'm trying to make it through this disease that seems to be eating away at my brain to come stay the weekend with you. glad you're drunk at the dance, wish i was with ya. miss all our stupid fun. love you

current mood: sick

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Friday, November 25th, 2005
11:49 pm
wow. i can honestly say that i no longer have any sort of drive or want to ever 'really' work in retail. spent from 5:15am - 1:15pm at kohls today, bagging for the big shopping day. it was ridiculous. and horrible, but only in such a way that you don't really realize how bad it is until you're already WAY too far in. so bad in fact, i'm wearing my leg brace again, ate a few muscle relaxers (something i was going to quit) and slept for 3 hours this afternoon. how disappointing.
and i'm working again tomorrow, but somewhere new! going with lee to open babies in bloom, and work there all day. but at least when i'm there, i still feel sane. partially.
and i'll get money. i really like money. not quite so big on spending, but love having money. i'm such a miser (after all, i have down the limp and the love of cash, now all i need is a big old house and a community that hates me!)
heading to bed, my whole body hurts :(

current mood: sore

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Thursday, November 24th, 2005
10:25 pm - happiness is a warm gun...
wow how i hate the holidays. i think for christmas i'll buy my parents each one shot to my head. after all, generosity captures the spirit of the holiday season the best.

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1:10 am
i'm addicted to christmas music. and very tired

current mood: sleepy

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Saturday, November 19th, 2005
12:54 am -
let's discuss disappoints for a bit, shall we?
how about the new harry potter movie
seeing your ex very much in love
computers that don't want to work right when they're needed most

(i seem to complain a lot on here)

current mood: disappointed

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Tuesday, November 15th, 2005
i'm seriously geekin out from withdrawls and it's all because of that fuckin dido here with me song

goblet of fire is 2 days away wheeeeeeeeeee

i'm going to lexington

current mood: weird

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Friday, November 11th, 2005
12:38 am - look how cute!

adopt your own virtual pet!

current mood: amused

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Tuesday, November 8th, 2005
11:45 pm
i was just informed by a friend online that they think of me as their 'Rennaisance Goddess'. dear god, i love the internet...

current mood: giddy

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1:13 pm - faith restored...mostly
my faith in tech support of electronic products has been completly restored this afternoon.
last march my MP3 player suddenly crashed, stating a problem with the memory. since then i have send three angry emails, and made several exasperated phone calls, reaching no one. the entire system was automated, so i would speak to machines for 45 minutes at a time and then try to leave a message only to find that the answering machine was full.
so today, after going to a walk in this rediculous weather, i decided i would try again. called and found that the number has been disconnected, but the voice gave me the new number, which i call. i only spoke with one machine before, to my surprise, a young arabian man picks up with his cute little 'ha-loh!'. honestly i was so stunned i just sat there for a sec, and he repeated himself. regaining my composure, i proceeded to tell him i had a long running problem with my MP3 player and needed to speak with someone about it. he said he could help me, and we were off.
when i hung up my phone 15 minutes and 37 seconds later (i checked my cell history) he had fixed my problem. completly. i can now put music back onto my eight-months-dead MPIO.
and the real thing is, he doesn't think he really did much. that's just his job. but to me, he jsut saved me the hassle and stress of dealing with sending the player to cali and them telling me there's nothing they can do, and then my warranty being up and blah blah blah. seriously. i thanked him several times and he just kinda laughed.
so even though it did take eight months to talk to a person that could help me, i'm way happy =)
now if only the people at my cell phone customer were so helpful...

current mood: impressed

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Tuesday, November 1st, 2005
1:45 am
let me just say that haunted houses rock. what is it about being scared can people possibly like so much? i have no idea, but it's great :)
talked about middle school and high school during steak-and-shake time. good times.
my new family is all leaving me tomorrow, all going back to their respectable cities, and i will miss them, even if they are hookers.
meg and i contemplated having a giant blow-out to our paducah stay by tp-ing mr. mcelrath, but decided against it. it might have happened, had we not been so sleepy, lol.
watched 21 grams tonight. one of thoes beautiful, yet terrible, yet painfully real movies that made me question my life and the choices i've made. how i love it and hate it so :)
shout out to my buddy sarah r and her 20th bday. man, when did we get so fucking old, huh? hope it's great and as usual i'll manage to extend your bday for at least another month while i take my sweet-ass time getting you your present :) love you sweetie.

current mood: content

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Monday, October 31st, 2005
2:15 am
and on a much happier note, happy halloween! :) i do love this holiday lol. everyone eat lots of candy! and maybe i'll be a vamp for halloween, check out my cute lil' lemon!

current mood: thirsty

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2:01 am - why does nothing ever turn out like it should...
don't you just hate it when you make plans that you REALLY want to work out (usually for another person) and then you have that terrible helpless disappointment when they start to fall through. yeah. that's how my weekend's felt. and fuck places that close early.

current mood: frustrated

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